I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you. Isaiah 41:10 (MSG)
Surprising and Thorough Healings – Affirmation and Action Series – Part 4
I know what it’s like to pray for healing.
In my faith tradition, we used to go down to the front of the church at the end of a service so that Pastors and Leaders could lay hands on the sick and pray for healing. I went down plenty of times, and I’m not sure that I’ve ever been instantly healed in body from sickness. I’m not saying that it doesn’t happen. I still pray for health and wholeness, but the altar at the front of the church isn't the only place I outwork my faith for healing.
It’s in my words and practices, too.
I used to punish my body for the way it behaved…I had Glandular Fever in my final year of high school, and I berated my body for that. “How could you do this to me?!” When I’d get headaches, insomnia, depression, colds and flu’s, gastro, period pain, adrenal fatigue… all the things: whenever something would go wrong, instead of listening to my body, I got mad at it. Can you imagine how that kind of attitude impacts your cells?
The biggest frustration, and even heartbreak, around health is the way it can disrupt our plans and productivity. In your mind and heart, you plan one thing, but ill-health demands a different kind of plan. It’s hard not to feel disappointed and like its unfair when your body can’t keep up wth your plans the way others seem to. It's difficult to let go of what you planned, accept what is happening in your body, and adjust your plan accordingly.
Acceptance isn’t giving up. It’s being honest and real. You can pretend you’re not sick all you like. You can faith it and claim it and declare it as a way to pacify fear and put off the changes you need to make. Acceptance is taking responsibility and owning what's happening to you. Knowledge is power, right? When you can accept where your health is at, you are empowered to make the changes and decisions you need to make.
Or maybe for you, acceptance is realizing that there’s not much you can do, but wait and see and pray. And that’s OK. Because you can do that, too.
I’ve learned that when my body is sick, it’s not that it’s failed, it's trying to tell me something, catch me up on what’s going on under my skin. So I’ve started listening. I'm realizing that my body loves me and wants me to succeed. My body IS me. And I’m learning to love it, in and out, no matter what it's going through.
And strangely, I am being healed from other things while my body has been sick. I’m being healed from my need of certainty; perfection; endless productivity; judging myself according to my achievements; judging myself according to my looks. Compassion brings about all kinds of surprising and thorough healings.
AFFIRMATION: My body is on my side, and I’m on its. I will make the changes I need to, and seek to heal through both faith and good practice. I have an expectation of wellness, but I’m flexible on the timing and the journey, knowing that there is more for me to learn in this season than what I currently know.
“Don’t panic. I’m with you. There’s no need to fear for I’m your God. I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.” Isaiah 41:10 (MSG).
Written by Lizzy Milani